Life Choices

Most people have a hard time with life choices such as, should I get married, have kids, or buy a house? These are, in their own right, very big tough decisions but at least they are accepted by the majority of society.

Every day of my life I make choices that are, in general, looked down upon by society. And no, being a musician is not a completely unacceptable lifestyle but truth be told most people don't agree with staying up until 5am working on music and going from job to job just to maintain a performance schedule. Even harder when it comes to maintaining any sort of relationship, including friends.

I know what you're thinking, "I chose this life." To be blatantly honest with you, I did choose to continue to pursue this life, but in the beginning this life chose me. I'm a complete addict. Going from playing 6-7 days every week to playing no more than twice in a week, I feel like a heroin addict. I can't get my fix fast enough or for long enough. Somedays I don't know what to do because it feels like this will be a life-long process that may never "pay off" in a monetary sense. Most days I find comfort in the process and continue to work my ass off finding and creating projects.

There's always another hurdle, always something new to learn.

Dreams

What are you willing to sacrifice for your dreams? I thought up until just today that I knew the answer to this question but when you're bombarded with possibilities never before conceived it makes it a bit harder to define these lines. What if your dreams are socially or even morally unaccepted by our current society? Do you still do whatever it takes to achieve them or do you make compromises along the way and end up somewhere on the other side of nowhere-ville face down in your own unhappiness? Or do you run out and take every chance you get to meet these challenges head on to overcome them?

I ask these questions because I've had an updated vision to my dream. As I do I'm constantly moving toward one dream or another. But along the way as I get older those dreams change not because of compromise but because the spiritual waves of the world pry their way into my thoughts and wash away the old dreams but left behind are the new upgraded dreams. Still following my original path but more like a v2.0, still maintaining the structure but updating some of the social standards and beginning to work against some of these.

At this point I can't tell you what my dream is but I can tell you that it goes against most of what society says is appropriate or acceptable, thus why I'm having this moment of doubt before I jump in and take it by the reigns. Into the unknown we go. Fearless and powerful.