Life Choices

Most people have a hard time with life choices such as, should I get married, have kids, or buy a house? These are, in their own right, very big tough decisions but at least they are accepted by the majority of society.

Every day of my life I make choices that are, in general, looked down upon by society. And no, being a musician is not a completely unacceptable lifestyle but truth be told most people don't agree with staying up until 5am working on music and going from job to job just to maintain a performance schedule. Even harder when it comes to maintaining any sort of relationship, including friends.

I know what you're thinking, "I chose this life." To be blatantly honest with you, I did choose to continue to pursue this life, but in the beginning this life chose me. I'm a complete addict. Going from playing 6-7 days every week to playing no more than twice in a week, I feel like a heroin addict. I can't get my fix fast enough or for long enough. Somedays I don't know what to do because it feels like this will be a life-long process that may never "pay off" in a monetary sense. Most days I find comfort in the process and continue to work my ass off finding and creating projects.

There's always another hurdle, always something new to learn.

Time and Space

No more hiding in plain site. It's time people learn the truth.
The pain subsides when I'm the most vulnerable. Stress
leads to breakthroughs that are not productive for everyday life,
but that drive the soul to the limits of time and space. Bending
around the limits of physics to take the heart and soul on a trip
through the creative unknown. When I create music time and space
become irrelevant lending to the path of infinite possibilities.
Pure creation is that of no ego; no judgment. It just happens
free of worldly indulgence.