From the beginning it's always been about control. You couldn't let go. Even the minuscule events in each day became monumental in destroying our future because you wouldn't allow any compromise of control. What you said and what you showed were two different things. Partners help steer the ship to allow time for rest and comfort but you always had to be in control, even of the things you can't control. And that, was our downfall.
I was willing and had already compromised most of my self-worth to try to understand your path and walk beside you. Oh the countless sleepless nights, but it wasn't enough for you. I wasn't good enough. I should have seen it from the start. I was blinded by a throbbing loving heart, that nothing would ever be good enough, for you.
I never tried to fix anything because I know the issues we both have can not be repaired but only mistakes to be learned from. I only tried to get you to see a different point of view. Because then maybe perhaps there would be a future for us together, beyond what either of us had comprehended.
Even still, after all that we've been through, I miss you.
