Friday, August 30, 2013

What Most People Don’t Know about the Process


Its true I spent five years working on a degree at the University of Utah and had my share of trials and tribulations on the way. But now that I am here and have officially completed my degree, as in I finally received the paper in the mail with my name on it, its time to shed the truth and let go of some of the emotions that I have collected along the way.

I’ve been through five years of school at University of Utah but also did a year and a half at Utah State University. I went through five fairly serious/not-so-serious relationships and even finalized the papers on my divorce. Had a handful of days where food was not only scarce but also non-existent and I have a small handful of friends and family to thank for buying me lunch or dinner on those very stressful days. From re-igniting a distant relationship to nearly estranging my family these experiences have built a foundation for me to stand on and more importantly to follow these dreams through to the end.

Even now, as food is scarce and the prospect of work is unknown, I still feel an intense amount of accomplishment. True that mine are not as famed or outstanding as some, but for me they are mountains that have been conquered.  The amount of information that I’ve acquired along the way is ridiculous but the knowledge is priceless. My hope is that I can do the people that have helped me along the way justice by succeeding in my life goals and happiness. Because everything they have done has been because I was too stubborn to give up on a dream.

Thank you to everyone who has been there, bought me food, put up with rehearsal schedules, and the many frustrating moments which helped me stoke the fire enough to not only survive but to press on head-first into my dreams. I couldn’t feel more blessed and humble to have such great friends and family. Here’s to a long life following the stars. 

Who knows where this will lead? All I know, is that the creativity is flowing again stronger than ever before and now I'm armed with the proper tools.


Saturday, August 3, 2013

Turning Points

Don't have the right connections to perform music for a living, and haven't been working consistently enough as a stage-hand to have any connections. Stuck in limbo. Day-jobs are unattainable. Feels like being picked last for kickball. People are always surprised when they finally do work with me and realize that I'm not full of shit and I know what I'm talking about. Aside from the personal connections  (networking) that others have, I can hang with the big boys. Its not about chops anymore, its about networking and the drive to succeed. I have the drive and the heart but the path is unclear at the moment. How can I get this fog to lift to show the world what I'm made of?